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Wednesday, October 29, 2008


Dear Headphones,

I GIVE UP. I CAN'T MATCH UP. I'M JUST AVERAGE. JUST KILL ME. I don't know if I can hold on to her any longer.

I can't help it. If I just have these doubts I just can't help it. I can't help it if I need constant reassuring. I feel so unsecured. I just wanna put these feelings aside but they just keep coming back. Just that one time I saw her, I had a panic attack so bad, I couldn't breathe, I just hid away behind a pillar. DO you know how stupid it feels? To just hide away?

Now there's eyecandy. I feel I can't hold on to her much longer. She's slowly slipping away. Ever since she reopened her blog, I thought, "Hey, I could get more involved now." But no. Instead I've become more worried. Dumb.

I know its our time off from each other. WHY WON'T THIS HEARTACHE STOP. THANKS AH, IN ADDITION TO MY RANDOM HEADACHES. ARGH. Its alright for us to get to know people, go on with our lives.

I've learnt in my journey with God and Jesus, Believing in things goes for 90% of everything you want. I believe we were special, and that this is just some time off. But the word "were" haunts me now. What will become of our Love, in future and now? What has become of this man of faith and trust?

Sigh.

We'll see in 4 months.

Tears. God, tell me what I can do, teach me how to remove this pain. I still love her. but does she still?

The Guy
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